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The life of every man,

is a diary..

In which he means to write one story,

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Truth hurts, but I live with it. I am Fadilah Jasmani AKA Fadz, I have my own beliefs, I have faith in me and I believe that truth hurts.	Friday, July 31, 2009, 7/31/2009 11:51:00 PM Buried Myself Alive By The Used You almost always pick the best times, to drop the worst lines You almost made me cry again this time Another false alarm, red flashing lights Well, this time I'm not going to watch myself die I think I made it a game, to play your game And let myself cry.. I buried myself alive on the inside So I could shut you out, and let you go away for a long time I guess it's ok I puked the day away I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way And if you want me back, you're gonna have to ask I think the chain broke away And I felt it the day that I had my own time I took advantage of myself and felt fine But, it was worth the night I caught an early flight and I made it home Nicer than that, with my foot on your neck I finally have you.. Right where I want you! - The Used Sunday, July 26, 2009, 7/26/2009 10:45:00 PM P/S I LOVE YOU. It's not easy, isn't it? Making every moments worthwhile. They don't understand.. They just don't. How to make them understand? P/S I LOVE YOU. :) Saturday, July 25, 2009, 7/25/2009 07:18:00 AM Feeling down.. :( Saatnya ku berkata, mungkin yang terakhir kalinya sudahlah lepaskan semua, ku yakin inilah waktunya Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi.. Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi. Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi, satu pintaku jangan kau cuba tanyakan kembali.. Rasa yang ku tinggal mati seperti hari kelmarin, saat semua di sini. Dan bila hatimu termenung, bangun dari mimpi-mimpimu Membuka hatimu yang dulu, cerita saat bersamaku Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi.. Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi. Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi, satu pintaku jangan kau cuba tanyakan kembali.. Rasa yang ku tinggal mati seperti hari kelmarin, saat semua di sini. Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi, simpan untukmu sendiri Semua sesal yang kau cari, semua rasa yang kau beri.. - Peterpan Wednesday, July 22, 2009, 7/22/2009 03:33:00 PM School, school, school! Hello!! =D School has started last Monday. I'm so happy that I'm back to school again and meet a lot of friends.. Especially my classmates! From 1A. We went to McD together, 15 of us, after we did some "shopping" at Popular & ArtFriend. Haha. haiya, still got some other things that I need to buy! :S Anyway, first week of school yet got loads of homework. Going crazy already.. yawn Tomorrow's gonna be a looooOoooong day. Better prepare myself!! =D p/s: Miss my friends at work! Miss working with them.. 2 more days to go! :D Sunday, July 19, 2009, 7/19/2009 12:54:00 AM Obsessed + Beyonce = Perfect! :D Went out with BFF & Nurul. We had fun, it was really great. Haha. Though we changed the plan last minute, we still managed to go for karaoke and the movie. ;) Obsessed was okay, Beyonce was so hot! Haha. But I'm hotter..? Truth hurts, doesn't it? :p hahaha! Kidding. Anyway, was talking to Yati about Arif, and ABDUL HAKIM. Haha. see, Yati. Aku caps lock name die.. Hahaha. And suddenly we saw him at Orchard! OMG! Hahaha. He was playing the keyboard.. OMG! Hahaha. Klakarla tuh.. =p kebetolan je yer.. yawn Friday, July 17, 2009, 7/17/2009 02:36:00 PM I love.. The Notebook! =D Tersadar di dalam sepiku Setelah jauh melangkah Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku Kembali dalam dekap tanganmu Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu Tak akan terulang lagi semua kesalahanku.. Yang pernah menyakitimu Tanpamu tiada berarti Tak mampu lagi berdiri Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku Kembali dalam dekapan tanganmu - Afgan :) terime kasih, cinta.. "With every great love.. Comes great story." - The Notebook Like mine.. Forever, will it be great. The Notebook inspires me a lot.. Like watching my own self in a movie. Picture myself in 30-50 years time. Haha. The best part in the movie.. I love this part. Noah represents Me! Haha. Because of the temper, etc. ;) Young Noah: I see you got my letters, finally. What are you gonna do, Al? Young Allie: I don't know. Young Noah: We're back to that? Are we back there? What about the past couple of days? They happened, you know. Young Allie: I know that they happened, and they were wonderful. But they were also very irresponsible. I have a fiancé waiting for me at a hotel who's going to be crushed when he finds out what I did. Young Noah: So you make love to me, and go back to your husband. Was that your plan? Was that a test I didn't pass? Young Allie: No, I made a promise to a man. He gave me a ring and I gave him my word. Young Noah: And your word is shot to hell now, don't you think? Young Allie: I don't know. I'll find out when I talk to him. Young Noah: This is not about keeping your promise, and it's not about following your heart. It's about security. Young Allie: What is that supposed to mean? Young Noah: Money! Young Allie: What are you talking about? Young Noah: He has a lot of money. Young Allie: Now I hate you, you smug bastard. Young Noah: Well, I hate you. If you leave here, I hate you. Young Allie: Have you been paying attention to anything that's happening? Young Noah: I guess not, I think I must have misread all of those signals. Young Allie: Well, I guess you did! Young Noah: You're bored! You're bored and you know it! You wouldn't be here if there wasn't something missing. Young Allie: You arrogant son of a bitch. Young Noah: Would you just stay with me? Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fighting. Young Noah: Well, that's what we do! We fight! You tell me when I'm being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you're being a pain in the ass, which you are 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have, like, a two second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing. Young Allie: So what? Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. And we're gonna have to work at this every day. But I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day. Can you do something for me? Please? Will you just picture your life for me? Thirty years from now? Forty years from now? What's it look like? If it's with that guy, go. Go! I lost you once. I think I can do it again if I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out. Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way. No matter what I do, somebody gets hurt! Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants?! Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do you want? What do you want? Young Allie: It's not that simple! Young Noah: What do you want? Goddammit, what do you want? Young Allie: I have to go. It hurts, really. I really can feel Noah's character.. Fuh. Still can't stop crying everytime I watch the movie.. You guys should watch it. 9/10. =D Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 7/14/2009 02:18:00 AM All Again For You. I couldn't sleep last night I walked alone on the beach, where we always used to go.. When we couldn't hook up at home I thought of you, and the time we jumped the fence Both sides ripped down, we dove right in And the cops chased us again When you were mine, you know.. We had it all in front of us You were the one I was in love, but you always hurt the one you lost I couldn't get enough You were everything that's bad for me Make no apologies I'm crushed, black and blue But you know.. I'd do it all again for you. Today, dressed up in designer drugs.. Dedicated to the one I'll always love, the one who really messed me up I let you take the wheel and the driver's seat Strapped in so you get the best of me.. Now what's left are the memories I am standing in the ocean rain Rough and ready, for your deadly game I've got nowhere else to go.. - We The Kings Monday, July 13, 2009, 7/13/2009 12:11:00 AM Fresh! :) Can't help but smile. I didn't show it, but I really did it. :) Yes! There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved. - George Sand It's really fine with me now. I'm new, I'm fresh. I'm ready for changes.. :) Thanks for the shoe & flip flop, Mama & Papa! =D I love Globe! Hahaha. Thanks, teman.. Kerane memperkenalkan. ;) Saturday, July 11, 2009, 7/11/2009 02:35:00 PM Growing Up And Moving On.. Sometimes the cards we are dealt are not always fair. However you must keep smiling & moving on.. - Tom Jackson To be able to move on, one has to learn to forgive not only the person (or people) who have done one wrong but also oneself. - Euginea Tripputi Take a second out to think about this: in your life you search and search for the right person for you. Every time you break up with someone you get one step closer to that person. You should look at moving on as getting closer to meeting the one. - Ian Philpot Faking it doesn't mean that you're lying about it. That's when you're letting it go and free yourself from being too devoted.. Life isn't just about love, doesn't it? It's how you live your life, matters. But you can't just put a side your feeling, can you? It's how you keep it and keep it breathing deep within you, matter most. A promise in the dark hurts, doesn't it? So don't promise when you're uncertain about something. I won't promise myself anymore unless I really have to. So, I'm living my life.. Like how it used to be. Like me, myself and Fadz.. :) Babes!! I'm still me, anyway. Hahaha. Friday, July 10, 2009, 7/10/2009 10:14:00 PM Out With Ainulyaqiin :) Went out with "my someone special". ;) guess it's been a long time since we last went out together. Went to Keppel Bay and VivoCity. , 7/10/2009 01:34:00 AM I Wish You'd Stay By Brad Paisley Listen to this.. I love this song. It's so meaningful.. It's a country song by Brad Paisley, I Wish You'd Stay. Not so draggy.. Anyway, it's NOT easy to wish someone you love, to find a new lover along the way.. Hahaha! But Brad did, still he just wish that she'd stay. :) enjoy.. Wednesday, July 8, 2009, 7/08/2009 06:53:00 PM Thinking.. Clueless. , 7/08/2009 02:40:00 AM Endless Fear Sitting on my bedside, contemplating about a lot of things. My life; biggest fear, highest achievement. But sitting down doesn't work things out, really. Nothing motivates you if you ain't doing anything about it. 2 things I've learnt at this very moment, at this hour: "ikhlas" & "redha". Due perkare yang susah nak dikecapi oleh manusie. Termasok aku.. Ikhlas, susah skali nak mengikhlaskan diri melakukan sesuatu yang kite tak mahu. Bile kite tak ikhlas, kite tak redha yang perkare tu harus dilakukan walau apepon ganjarannye. Ikhlas ngan redha terlalu terikat pade satu same laen sehinggekan ie tak bole berdiri sendiri. Ape yang aku blaja hari ni, pagi ni.. Adelah, cube mengikhlaskan diri menerime dan melakukan ape yang telah ditetapkan dengan hati yang redha tanpe mempersoalkan ganjarannye. Tapi ade ke manusie yang lepas dari rase berkehendak, dan rase berkuase ingin memiliki sesuatu? Mampu ke aku menepis semue dugaan yang mendatang dengan ikhlas dan redha? Mampu ke aku bertahan dan berdiri sendiri walaupon ujian itu terlalu berat untok aku tangani..? Mampu ke aku menerime takdir dan ketentuanNye yang bertentangan dengan kehendakku? Subhanallah, andai aku mampu. Monday, July 6, 2009, 7/06/2009 07:08:00 PM Feeling Down Suddenly.. Hey, guys.. Feeling down all of sudden. I really got nothing to do at home, so I guess, here comes all the emotional songs that I've been listening to lately. Enjoy, k. I found a way to let you in but I never really had a doubt Standing in the light of your halo, I got my angel now It's like I've been awakened Every rule I had you breakin', it's the risk that I'm takin' I ain't never gonna shut you out.. - Halo, Beyonce Knowles Do you ever think about me? Do you ever cry yourself to sleep? In the middle of the night when you're awake, are you calling out for me? Do you ever reminisce? I can't believe I'm acting like this I know it's crazy, how I still can feel your kiss.. Do you ever ask about me? Do your friends still tell you what to do? Every time the phone rings, do you wish it was me calling you? Do you still feel the same or has time put out the flame? I miss you.. Is everything okay? - 6, 8, 12, Brian McKnight Notice me, take my hand.. Why are we strangers, when our is strong? Why carry on without me? I make believe that you are here It's the only way I see clear What have I done? You seem to move on easy.. - Everytime, Britney Spears From the bottom of my broken heart, there's just a thing or two I'd like you to know.. You were my first love, you were my true love, from the first kisses to the very last rose From the bottom of my broken heart, even though time may find me somebody new You were my real love, I never knew love till there was you.. - From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart, Britney Spears Who are you now? Are you still the same or did you change somehow..? What do you do at this very moment when I think of you? And when I'm looking back, how we were young and stupid Do you remember that? Now look at me, instead of moving on I refuse to see that I keep coming back I'm stuck in a moment. That wasn't meant to last.. I've tried to fight it, I can't deny it.. You don't even know. - I Still, BSB Don't say you love me, or last forever Don't tell me you need me if you're not gonna stay Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it Make it real, or take it all away.. - Don't Say You Love Me, The Corrs You, do you remember me..? Like I remember you? Do you spend your life going back in your mind to that time? Because I, I walk the streets alone.. I hate being on my own And everyone can see that I really fell and I'm going through hell You'll always be in my life even if I'm not in your life Because you're in my memory Somebody hopes that someday you will see That somebody's me.. - Somebody's Me, Enrique Iglesias I've been pushing hard to open up the door Trying to take us back to where we were before But I'm done I just can't do this anymore Cause we can't be mended so let's stop pretending now We've been walking round in circles for some time and I think we should head for the finish line So believe me, I am sorry.. - I Wanted You, Ina Won't you walk through? And bust in the door and take me away? No more mistakes.. Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay. - Thinking Of You, Katy Perry Well I wonder could it be When I was dreaming 'bout you baby, you were dreaming of me? Call me crazy, call me blind.. To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time So much I need to say Been lonely since the day, the day you went away So sad but true.. For me there's only you, been crying since the day, the day you went away.. - The Day You Went Away, M2M Maybe this decision was a mistake You probably don't care what I have to say but it's been heavy on my mind for months now Guess I'm trying to clear some mental space I'll leave you alone for good I promise If you answer this one question for me I just wonder.. Do you ever think of me anymore Do you? *- Do You, NeYo* Sikit2 je, Fadz. HeE~ Sunday, July 5, 2009, 7/05/2009 10:17:00 PM A Very Emotional Day Debikz Guys, gonna miss you. Dira and Husna. Please, do take care of yourselves. Time seems to fly faster than we realise, it's so sad to see us apart, when we have spent these few years together; arguments and fights, lame jokes to dirty one. And the most important thing is, the friendship we have built together through all the hard times at Ma'arif, and all the broken relationships experience we have shared. I've lost someone special because of the long distance, and really, it has killed part of me. So I'm just wishing that this time, losing won't mean so bad to me. The heart keeps thousands of secrets, and mine will remain unrevealed forever. Things had been said and done, and nothing's gonna heal the scars left in here. Nothing. Zero. Not a single advanced construction tool can ever reconstruct the abandoned, broken and rejected heart of mine. No. Being selfish? No. Being egoistic? No. I'm just giving myself some kind of protection, playing on the safe side. Truth hurts, doesn't it? Yes, and the truth haunts me. Cause sometimes, some words.. Are better to be left unspoken. :)		theonewhospeaks Everyday passes by, I learn something new. This is me, I am me. FadzFadz. 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